Untitled poems (Spring I-V)
Living in a decaying Artists’ Co-op where the boundary between the bathroom wall and the garden started to disintegrate, the usual distinctions between domestic human and non-human space allocations became increasingly unclear. Over time, creatures, insects and plants crossed the boundary into the home, human presence began to lessen as the space transformed into the abject.
The dismantling of the wall was evocative of science-fiction depicted landscapes, as ecologically dystopian, revealing the temporary manmade truth of domestic land divisions and presenting the imagined possible “return” of that same land to a pre-human earth. I was also highly aware of my own inherited painterly, romantic, literary and photographic notions of nature; of the desire for immersion in the sublime, of somehow being swept adrift from humans and returning to an Eden-like idyll. And such a romanticism of the wild, harshly contrasted against my actual experience of resistance to the increased presence of ‘the natural’ in the bathroom, which palpably threatened some of my notions of my own femininity; as insects, mice, dirt and earth took root in the bathroom space, and I was less able to distinguish myself as ‘clean’ and non-animal.
I wanted to honour, exaggerate and make such a noticing even more physical. In a tender, unconscious gesture then - that of beginning to take photographs - I attempted to dismantle the similarly false wall I observed between the creative disciplines of photography and painting. As I continued to use the bathroom to wash and shower, I took polaroids of the space and its immediate witnessing aided my own. I imagined that these photo-objects might too become porous; absorb something of the environment in which they were made, either fantastically make an image for me, draw upon their own watery depths or metaphysically evaporate the pictorial of their own accord, mirroring the dissolving of boundaries in the bathroom/garden wall.
5 x Colour polaroid, 2.1 x 3. 4 inches. Each unique.
Spring, London, 2008.